I've decided to post again; I have so much to say, but so little affinity for saying it.
It seems that my social life has been showing signs that it may yet begin to exist. I used to seemingly have an extremely strong aversion to social situations, but that seems to be slowly disappearing. I believe it has more to do with my new strategy of sticking with what I truly want, keeping the long-term in mind, and staying strong in the face of false opportunities. I've realized that in earlier days I was socially desperate, which led to my becoming a whore and a loser. But luckily, I pulled my head out of my ass before I sold my soul. It seems that people respect me more now that I am not desperately clingy, and I am actually hanging out with people who I enjoy being with.
( You wouldn't know it unless you know me real well, but I HATE authority. And mandatory volunteerism IS slavery.Collapse )
Whenever I try to do something, it usually only works if I am fully for doing it. It took me many years to discover why exactly I could be so intelligent and so stoopid at the same time, or why I could tackle problems that others found impossible and yet be too ineffectual to reach the top. A big source of it was confusion in my goals; I wrongly interpreted the life that I wanted to live, and my unconscious sabotaged to save me. You've probably noticed a few differences in me already (physical, too), but I'm still adding things. I'm not too sure what this means, but I am sure I want more change; probably more hacking, fun, joking, hanging out, pranks, movies, and philosophical and things I've wanted to do for a long time.
By the way, would anyone be interested in seeing Star Wars with me (and probably some other people)?